y’all said it!# 
THERE ARE ORANGE TREES EVERYWHERE IN THE SAN JUAQUIN VALLEY
'EVERYBODY THERE IS SO NICE'
'I REALLY ADMIRE THAT YOU LIKE PHYSICS'
'WE HAVE STICK AT HOME!'
'THE MOUNTAIN IS CALLING ME'
'IT'S JUST THE PARASITIC TICKS'
It’s hard to describe the feelings I have. A lot of gratitude for the experiences I’m earning. Eddie talked about viberations, but that feels too loud. Butch’s intertwanglism is too culturally specific. Both were onto something though. When you begin to see it, you can’t unsee it. The Egg, the Universe, yada yada, yes- BUT. Magic, spirits, living earth. There’s something OUT THERE. And yesterday I felt it. Felt? Today I SAW it. But looks and feels are quite different in this place. A visual version of the Realm of Sonorous Being.#
What is all of this?#

The snow made me very happy. I was elated we got to experience the park in this ‘off season’ way. Being is fun. Existing is rewarding. All these questions make me happy. The gratitude grows. I’m finding myself being grateful for the pain, fear, and anxiety as much as the awe, the love, and the pleasure.

I’m grateful to be.